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Sunday, August 16, 2015

Nourish

Hey.

Mea culpa, it's been forever, hasn't it? Life is busy with four kids (yes, I did say four!), homeschooling, and renovating.



I keep saying I'm going to start blogging again, and I never seem to get around to it.

Mea culpa.

Today I want to write about nourishment, which is fitting seeing how today's Gospel reading was this, from the book of John:

"I am the living bread that came down from heaven. Whoever eats of this bread will live for ever; and the bread that I will give for the life of the world is my flesh."

The Jews then disputed among themselves, saying, ‘How can this man give us his flesh to eat?’ So Jesus said to them, "Very truly, I tell you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. Those who eat my flesh and drink my blood have eternal life, and I will raise them up on the last day; for my flesh is true food and my blood is true drink. Those who eat my flesh and drink my blood abide in me, and I in them. Just as the living Father sent me, and I live because of the Father, so whoever eats me will live because of me. This is the bread that came down from heaven, not like that which your ancestors ate, and they died. But the one who eats this bread will live for ever." (6:51-58)

We, as Catholics, find in this passage one of the scriptural justifications for ancient Tradition, the doctrine of Transubstantiation. It is the belief that the bread and wine actually turn into the Body and Blood of Christ. Whenever Jesus prefaced a passage with "Very truly, I tell you,", which is also sometimes translated as "Verrily, verrily, I say unto you", Jesus is speaking literally. He tells us that we must literally eat the flesh and drink the blood. 



Some people will argue that Jesus didn't mean literally, but was speaking figuratively. But if that was the case, why did that statement cause such an uproar among the other Jews? They thought he was speaking literally! Besides, if you look back on the history of the Jews, and what sacrifices entailed and what happened to them, it makes perfect sense that Jesus - the sacrifice once and for all - needs to be consumed, as all sacrifices must be in some fashion. 

But enough of the theology. This is about food. 




I've been feeling really awful lately. The baby, at 10.5 months, sleeps like a newborn. Meaning, she's up every 45 to 90 minutes through the night. Her waking wakes up Abby, who sometimes struggles to go back to sleep. That means lots of sleepless night for this Momma, and my zombie-like state during the day means some of the daily household stuff does by the wayside. 

Meal-planning was basically non-existent this past week, since getting back from our sorjourn to Winnipeg for a bit of holidays and to attend the funeral Mass for my husband's grandmother. And my body paid the price. 



I didn't realize it until yesterday, after eating an honest-to-goodness real meal cooked from real food, with lots of veggies and good quality protein just how low I had been feeling, and how much of it was from the junk and processed food I had been feeding it. The difference was remarkable. 

Eating badly seems to be a self-perpetuating thing. You eat badly because you're too tired to prepare something decent. You feel worse because you didn't eat well, which makes you too tired for the next meal. It keeps going. 

We had relaxed Abby's food restrictions somewhat in recent months, and it makes a tremendous difference. Gluten, as it turns out, is still mostly off-limits. We can let her have some here and there (helpful for things like birthday parties), but we pay for it the next day in her behaviour. She's a good eater, however, and I can't complain. She loves foods like egg whites, broccoli (she can eat a 5 lb bag by herself in the course of 3 days), turnips, roasted chicken, carrots, salad greens, baked potatoes etc. Stuff that most parents dream of their kids eating, nevermind kids on the spectrum. Many of her classmates seem to survive on processed foods, which can't be helping their behaviour. 



Joseph can't have too much processed stuff either, or he's positively vibrating. He seems to need a diet of fresh air, good activities to keep his mind and body busy, plenty of fruits and raw veggies, and strict restrictions on things like TV and computer time (AKA screen time), as they seem to effect her weirdly and needs to detox from them once you turn them off. 

We need to be conscious of what we choose to nourish ourselves with. I think eating fresh, whole food is more important that choosing non-GMO, although I will chose non-GMO when I can. I think nourishing our minds with good books, good projects, and lifelong learning is paramount. I think nourishing our hearts with the companionship of family and good friends helps us lead balanced lives. And nourishing our soul with Christ, both literally when we receive the most Holy Eucharist, and spirituality within our devotions and liturgical practices, strengthens us in our daily lives. 






Wednesday, January 8, 2014

New Adventures

I'm assuming, like so many endevours, the number of newly-created blogs and the ressurecting of old blogs surges around the New Year. 


Life has been interesting. We have gone some unexpected places, and I'm still figuring out where these roads are taking us. 

But for now, just a picture: 


Sunday, January 27, 2013

Paranoia

This has been kicking around in my draft folder from 2011. I don't think it was done, but what's there is kinda cool and thought I would publish anyway. Maybe someday it will be famous, like an "unfinished symphony" or something... :)


I admit I am, by nature, a slightly paranoid person.

I come by it naturally. I come from a long line of Oh-Now-Let's-Dream-Up-The-Worst-Possible-Thing-That-Can-Happen-In-This-Situation people.

Mysterious bump on your arm? Infected deadly spider bite.

Headache? Brain Tumor. 


Loved one not answering the phone? Dead in a ditch somewhere. 

...You get the idea.

Now, I try very hard not to be paranoid. I read extensively, and I enjoy research. I try to always look at both sides of the situation, or to think up Not-The-Worst-Case-Scenario alternatives to my problem. I am aware of my tendency in this area, and I try very consciously and purposefully to counteract it.

But I tell 'ya, there are days where those voices in my head make too much sense....

I've long been concerned about the issue of food security. That, by extension has created my interest in the safety of our food supply when it comes to GMO's.

There was a time in my life when I had very little concern about what I put in my body. I joked that I was trying to save money on my funeral by eating lots of preservatives now. That all changed eight short years ago, when I was diagnosed with a sulphite allergy. Suddenly, what I put into my body came front and centre.

My diet was reduced to primarily natural foods, whole and unadultered. In recent years, my diet has expanded as my knowledge has increased, but a significant number of foods are still off the menu.

The most dramatic change, however, was that I was forced to read labels. All of them. With Abby's allergies and food sensitivities, that becomes even more imperative.

I've progressed from a person who couldn't care less about what I put into my body to a person who is horrified at 90% of the products on our grocery store shelves. Who worries about the effects of the chemicals in her shampoo and laundry soap. Who refuses to take birth control pills because she's convinced that they are a harmful product on so many levels.

Now, I'm not perfect. I still love donuts, and have passed my love of the tasty, sweet treat to Rachael, who already at the age of two thinks TEN timbits are not enough...

Something in the air

Hi. 

It's me. 

Again. 













Glad you haven't completely abandoned me.




I feel like I am once again on a cusp. 





The last cusp I don't think amounted to much other than a new baby. 

Don't worry... that won't happen this time. ;)




Babies #2 & #3 going for a horsey ride. 


I want to post more, but I have to think about it. There's an air of change afoot, and I don't mean Idle No More

But for updates... Abby is wellish. We thought we started having seizures again before Christmas, but turns out they were ticks. Gobs and gobs of ticks. Why? you may ask. They haven't a friggin' clue. We're going to get assessed by a psychiatrist, and they keep throwing words like "Tourette's" around. 


Poor kid. Poor Mom. Poor Dad. 

Because obstacles like Epilepsy and Autism weren't enough, eh?



Yeah, yeah, okay. I know. Go do the dishes. 

We'll chat later. 


Sunday, March 4, 2012

Damn the Devil

So, it happened. 


Yep. 


It sure did. 


























Our appointment with Dr. E went well. If by well, I mean that he told me to totally ignore neurology and go back up on her meds because he figures she's having sub-clinical seizures, which would account for every. single. weird. thing. we've seen in recent weeks, then it truly was an excellent appointment.  


Yay. 


Disappointing, but in my gut I know he's right. I knew that was probably the case weeks ago when we started noting the behaviour. I even thought I maybe saw the tail end of seizure a couple of weeks ago, but chalked it up to my overactive imagination. 


Yep.


So we go home. And she promptly has a seizure. 


Damn. 


The good news? We haven't seen another one since Thursday night when this all occurred. Mind you, we've been dealing with Abby having the stomach flu, Joseph starting to crawl and discovering just how un-baby-proofed our house has become, and now Rachael having said same stomach flu. So we might have missed it. They're pretty subtle. 


Wait and see. 


Wait and see. 


Damn. 







Friday, March 2, 2012

The Joke

Rachael is a funny, funny creature. Her world, her imagination, is something to be marveled at, envied even. She makes me laugh by just being her.



Feeding the chickens. Or so she tells me.
Those who know me "in real life" know I come from a long line of witty, funny people. I'm not quite the same caliber as my father and brothers, but I can see in Rachael that same sort of wit and desire to entertain. 



So I decided it was time to start grooming her. To tell jokes. 


Now, I've never tried teaching a three-year-old how to tell jokes before. Humour has been something that has eluded Abby until fairly recently, and even then she tends to gravitate to the very visual, slap-stick physical humour. Rachael, on the other hand, already enjoys word-play and has a very verbose aspect to her personality. How hard could it be? I thought to myself. 


I decided to start with the classic knock-knock joke. 



Me: Knock, Knock. 


Rachael: deadpan look, no other response forthcoming


Me: Rachael, Mommy says "Knock, knock", then you say...?


Rachael: continues to stare at me


Me: Then Rachael says, "Who's there?" Okay? Let's try again.... Knock, knock!


Rachael: still nothing


Me: "Who's there?"


Rachael: It's Daddy! (giggles)


Okay, so maybe not your traditional knock-knock joke, but she thought it was funny. 


Moving on... 



I decided to try the infamous Chicken Crossing the Road joke. 


Me: Rachael, why did the chicken cross the road? 


Rachael: sound of crickets in the background


Me: To get to the other side! 


Rachael: Was his family there? 


Me: What? 


Rachael: Was his family there? And the goat. It should be there too. [Insert three-year-old chatter about a family of chickens that have a pet goat.] And a car. 


Me: A car? 


Rachael: Yes, a car. They need to drive down the road to get home!


.......


I think I will try getting a book of kids jokes from the library. 

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Anger

Or was it frustration? 



Either way, I'm upset. My Abby, my beautiful, wonderful, happy child has turned into a demon-monster. She was doing well in school. She was doing well at home. We were so happy as a family, had a good rhythm going, and was actually at the point were we could live a semi-normal existence. You know, one where you get to leave the house and do stuff with your kids. And they sort of cooperate.



And suddenly... poof!... she was no more. 


Now she's aggressive, unhappy, uncooperative. She hits the other kids. She repeats words for 45 minutes or more at a time. She's unable to cope with loud noises, engages in self-stimulating behaviours, and whole nine yards. 






*sigh*


Talked to doctor. He says it might be neurological. We've been cutting back one of her meds, with the hopes of weaning her off one (she's been almost 2 years since a seizure).


Talk to neuro. No, no, no, they insist. It must be physical. Don't worry about it. Keep tapering her meds. 


So back off to Dr. E we go. I've got five pages (2 from teacher, 3 from me) outlining her changed behaviour. In a small font. Including her attacking another kid with scissors today. 


*sigh*


I hate this merry-go-round. 


Have I mentioned that Autism sucks??